I've given up Facebook--again--or at least, I am trying to. I've tried to give it up so many times in the past and just can't seem to completely stay away from it. Half the problem is that my dog training FB page is there and I can't delete my account without deleting the page too. I also need to check on it every so often.
The other problem is simply this "need" or urge to talk about myself! Give me points for honesty here. I struggle with the constant need to update everyone on what's going on in my life, my family, school and everything else. So I am practicing humility--or trying to--by giving up Facebook, the platform of ME.
It is interesting how the devil attacks the moment you try to make a change in your life, isn't it? Have you noticed this? Suddenly, everything becomes very hard. Or boring. Or "not worth it", ect. Whatever approach he chooses to take. It just becomes so hard. I felt like I was under spiritual attack yesterday and looked a little deeper into it and found this interesting article on it here. Sound familiar?? Don't fall for the "you've got to be a saint or holy to be attacked" thing; nope, he attacks anyone who is trying to do better in their life.
So what do I do with all this spare time now that I'm off of Facebook? Well, housework, of course. Housework is not my favorite thing, but lately, I've been on a cleaning spree. It feels good to make things clean and make it look new again. But, I still hate cleaning.
You want to hear something funny? I was inspired one day to use my cleaning as a "trade" for a person's soul that I'm praying for. I do the cleaning with a smile, if you help this person's soul, that sort of thing. Well, a few days later, the dishwasher broke. And then the day after that, the dryer broke. So now I am doing the dishes by hand and drying clothes out in the sun. Funny, God.
Prayer. I'm trying to also pray a little more, but this scheduled prayer thing is hard. I am too random for schedules. But, I am reading Something Other than God by one of my favorite bloggers, and am loving it. So weird to hold a real book again!
Last, ever since our crazy tornado/land spout/funnel cloud from last year, I have been obsessed with watching tornado videos on Youtube. Literally obsessed. When I tell my family that I'm going to take a break to relax, they know they can find me watching my tornado videos.
I used to be terrified of tornadoes--I am still am, in fact. Last year, watching that funnel cloud come out of the sky, I don't think I've ever been so scared. I've always been scared of storms and tornadoes and never really have grown out of this fear. I am tired of my children being the one to comfort me during a storm, instead of the other way around.
So watching these tornado videos have actually been a little therapeutic. I'm learning more about tornadoes and funnel clouds and wall clouds and what they look like. I'm learning about inflow winds and hook echoes and what green skies mean verses what yellow skies mean. I'm learning about microbursts, rain bombs and down bursts (not to be confused with down pours!) I can't say that I totally understand what I'm learning all the time but it does help to understand at least a little. Before, I relied on other people's knowledge (which wasn't always accurate) and now I'm relying on my own. Knowledge is power!
And yes, these videos are really addicting! I love watching microbursts as much as tornadoes, since they are somewhat similar (and yet very different.) But I would never want to be caught in one. Here is one of my favorites!
Ok, gotta go. Oh by the way, Spring is finally here!
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